first of all, weeh! i'm back!! after a long time, i finally updated my bloggy!! *clap clap*
it's already vacation- sembreak actually... and i was really hoping that i could enjoy this vacation... but i guess that won't happen... well you see, i'm so worried with my grades and i really don't have any idea if i will pass all the subjects! but i'm still hoping!
ito lang namang mga subjects na ito ang kinatatakutan ko eh,,
1. Psychometrics- ever since the semester started i had a bad feeling about this subject... it's actually hard to understand! it really is hard!! interpreting tests, dealing with scores and norms, constructing tests, etc.. what the heck?! i don't care if i have to read the whole book of Anastasi if i can only understand the things written there!! no matter how many times i read that book, nothing happens.. and we even have to study the manuals for some psychology tests! grr!
hell! how could you read and understand those manuals?! only professionals can understand those!! >_< __="
2. Experimental Psychology- experiments, experiments and experiments! oh my my! but comparing this subject to the other one, i prefer EP! easier to understand than Psychometrics! but still-- hard to understand... =__=
3. Statistics- damn! i did well with this subject during the prelims and i don't know what the hell happened to me this finals! goodness! the exam, for me was hard(kelan ba naging madali ang math sakin?)
i don't want to remember what happened to me while taking the test.... i cried after the test.... !!
dear God please let me pass this one!
4. Group Dynamics- fun and easy subject actually... so why did i include this in my list of subjects that i fear i might fail??
it's not really the subject that worries me but the prof! she's kind honestly, it's the first time i encountered a prof who doesn't get mad to students just because they're noisy! well come to think of it, i never saw her get mad at us!! (see? what a nice prof she is!)
but the problem is, she's kinda strict when it comes to grading! yes! she really is strict!
again and again... let me pass this subject too... =__=
it's not just the subjects that i'm bothered with... i'm also bothered with the upcoming proctoring for the USTET this October... i'm worried that i might make mistakes! well you see, it's like saying,, the fate of the examiners are in my hands! whether they'll mkae it to UST or not..
well somehow... but still!...
but thanks to my "OH-SO-GREAT and OH-SO-SUPPORTIVE" parents cause i wouldn't be experiencing that anymore. (do i sound so sarcastic here?) thanks to them i don't have to worry about what i should do, i don't have to be nervous before and after the test and i won't be tired! thank you my VERY SUPPORTIVE PARENTS! THANK YOU~!
thank you so much to my GREATEST AND VERY VERY SUPER SUPPORTIVE MOTHER!
she didn't allow me to go to that proctoring! isn't that great?!!? she's thinking of me! she's THINKING OF MY FEELINGS!
and guess what she said to me when i told her that i registered for the proctoring.. "magkano ba bayad dun? bayaran na lang kita hidi ka pa pagod!" wow... as in WOW!!!!!! what a sweet mom!? what a great mom she is! ayaw niyang mapagod ang anak nya! grabe!! i'm so touched!
well damn it! i'll be honest, the main reason why i wanted to join that proctoring was because of the money! i mean c'mon, it's hard to save money during vacations! the only way i can save more money is through that proctoring! and what did my great mom do?! she didn't allow me! aside from the money that i could get from that job, is the experience... i want to experience "REAL" proctoring and not just what we did in our class! and who knows, i could include this in my resume! aside from that, gusto ko rin namang matutuong humarap sa ibang tao! kailangan ko'ng gawin yun so by the time i start working, i won't have any problems dealing with people! why the hell can't she understand that!?! damn it! ! i'm trying to improve myself! i'm preparing myself so i won't have a hard time on my work!
damn! nagagalit na nman ako! hindi ko tlaga makalimutan to!!! arggh!
lalo ko pang ikinagalit nang sumang-ayon pa itong si papa kay mama!!
sabihan ba nman ako ng, " aalis pa ako eh wala naman daw akong pasok."
damn! i already told them last saturday afternoon that i registered for the proctoring! and what? it's already monday, ngayon sasabihin nilang papasok pa ako! in the first place hindi ko naman sinabing gagala ako! hindi ko naman sinabing may pasok ako! i told them that i'll be attending the orientation! that's all! i have no plans of going to the mall after that! damn! i don't have money and i don't want to spend so much coz i'm saving!!!! why can't they understand that!
wala na ba silang alam isipin kundi gagala ako?! they'll get mad at me if i leave school late! they'll get mad at me if i go to school early before my time! what th hell?!?! what's so wrong with that?! in the first place, who would want a schedule that requires you to stay at school at 8 in the evening?! damn it! kung ako lang masusunod sana 11 ng umaga pauwi na ako! but what can i do?!!? damn it Damn it!!!
nakakapikon pa, they didn't give me money! telling me an excuse that my mom forgot to give me my allowance.. that she was already in makati when she remembered! damn you!
then i told my dad that i'll leave at 11 and he didn't say anything. so i assumed he got it already.. i was about to take a shower when my dad ask me what time will i be going home, so i replied, i don't know.. well i really don't know how long will the orientation end! and then he said, "baka magpasundo mama mo sa makati, umuwi ka ng maaga kundi hindi kita masusundo" so again, i said it's okay if i'll just go straight home and asked for a spare key but guess what my dad said! "hindi ko alam kung saan ung susi." damn! how come he doesn't know where it is! as in hindi tlaga nya ako iniitindi! so i got pissed off and texted Margot and Gian that i won't be coming to the orientation anymore!
damn it! they have a lot of excuses! damn it!! i really don't get it hy they won't allow me to go at that time!!!! f**k it!
do they intend to lock me up in this damn house?! lock me up for years! damn it! damn it!!
i know it's done.. it happened already but i just don't get it! why do they treat me like that?!!? damn!
here i am again.. tears are staring to fall from eyes... damn.. this is actually the first time for this year that i cried so much! ididn't cry like this when my Lolo died! damn it! damn it!!!!!
i really am starting to hate them!! honestly... i'm starting to hate them...
i'm sick and tired with this kind of treatment from my parents! damn!
i'm so sorry guys for all the bad words i wrote here....
hope you would understand how i'm feeling right now...
that's what i did last night... after i drew jaejoong...
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don't wanna think of that anymore... getting stressed and depressed!
by the way! i decided to draw Jaejoong of DBSK unfortunately, i failed! i mean i failed to make my drawing llok like Jae! hahaha!
it's because of his nose! ahh! so hard to draw his nose!!
oh and i made the drawing more like an anime.. hahah!
so here it is...
~the draft... XD~
~this was supposed to be the finish product.. but i was not happy with the nose! XDD~
and here's the output!!
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okay for those fans of DBSK.. please don't get mad at me if i was not able to make my drawing as pretty as the human Jaejoong.. ^^,
**just like what Gian said.. i lack in training! hahaha!