i'm back again and i'm still here in the UST internet section... i'm really bored and i want to go home right now but i'm still waiting for the book i borrowed!! it's still in the photocopying center i guess...!! haaayayy!!!
well... something just came out from my mind... actually, i was thinking about it for these past few days... i don't know why it suddenly popped out of my mind...????
well... i just want to know what special thing in me that everyone can remember??? what i mean is that, for the moment that they hear or see something, the first person that they would remember would be me...?? well i'm not referring to those stupid things i did!! what i'm trying to say here is that, is there something special in me that everyone can notice and remember???
just like CJ de Silva.. she is the young girl once featured in a milk endorsement.. i forgot the brand name... but then, that advertisement shows different gifted children.... as i was saying, just like her, evrytime people hear her name they would always say that that girl is a gifted child because she can paint in an early age of four or 6...
another would be some athletes... once people hear about a certain kind of sport, they would actually refer to a good and great athlete...
it's not that i am envy of these people but i just want to know what is it in me that people can notice and remember??? what special thing or special talent do i have??? in what things do i excel???
honestly, even i don't know what is my real talent... i don't know where i excel... hindi ko alam kung saan ba tlaga ako magaling... hindi ko alam kung anu-ano yung mga bagay na kaya kong gawin tlaga... hindi ko alam kung ano yung special talent na yun ang magpapakilala sakin sa ibang tao... ano at san nga tlaga kaya??
i feel that i'm a kind of person that who wants to learn everything but doesn't want to improve something...
i like drawing but i often draw especially at times like this... and i usually don't join any drawing contests.... i like singing but i just don't know how and my voice is not that good to hear.. i like collecting stuffs but i even can't collect more than ten pieces.... i like to watch lots of movies but then i'm not in the mood.... i like to do some T.L.E. things like sewing, cooking, craft-making but when i started doing these things i don't want to finish them!
haaayy naku!!!!
maybe it only mean one thing.... i still don't know who i really am.... why is that so?? why because i don't know what reall makes me happy... i don't know what really hurts me... i don't know what really scares me.... i don't know what really makes me sad...i don't know what i really want to do in my life... what i wanted to pursue.... what career to take.... what talent do i really possess.... i just don't know who i really am....
i guess no one can really tell who i am... who i really am... what i really like.... why do i exist in this world... what is my purpose in this planet... no one can really tell who you really are... except you and you have to find it out for yourself...